Confession #4
I often wonder what type of mother I would be today if I had
not taken control of my obesity 8 years ago.
In 2006 I began a weight loss journey that has helped shape my life emotionally,
physically, spiritually, mentally and relationally. Since I have lost over 140lbs. to date, I see
life totally different. I do not obsess
about my weight and the constant act of pulling and tugging at my clothes. I do not stress over whether people will disregard
me or dismiss me simply because of my body weighing a whopping 318 lbs. Yes, I constantly hear some women say that
weight does not dictate ones quality of life, but for me, that was a total
LIE! I HATED being fat! I felt like a thinner, better me was lying
dormant underneath all the extra flesh.
I wanted to be FREE to be the real ME God created me to be. I hated how some people treated me as if I
were invisible. How some people would constantly
remind me of how “pretty” my face was and if only I would lose weight. How some people would cringe when they
noticed that they were seated next to the fat lady on a plane, train or
bus. For me, my outer appearance 100%
impacted every area of my life. What
about you?
It was so important to me that when I became a mom, that my
children would be proud of mommy, inside as well as outwardly. Because I love who I am today more due to my
weight loss, I know that bleeds over into my child rearing. I have more self-esteem and am extremely
proud of all hard work that I put in on a daily basis to be my best. And my girls see that. They say, “Mom, see you when you get back
from the gym!” I love when my 5 year old
can wrap her arm all the way around my waist and give me a huge hug. I love it when my girls call me, “Pretty
Mommy!” I am in no wise putting more
emphasis on outer beauty. I constantly teach
to my girls that the most important part of a person is his/her heart. If the heart and soul is ugly, the outer
shell will be, even if you have the body of a goddess. However, I also want them to know the
importance of health, nutrition and fitness.
And let’s be real, the world we live in judges you first and foremost on
what you look like. Even in the Bible in
1 Samuel 16:7, states: “the LORD sees not as man sees: man looks
on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart. (ESV)”
Being physically healthy is very important to being able to
fulfill the many task moms have on a daily basis. Am I saying we should look like super models? Heck, I do not have the body of a model! You have to see what healthy looks like for
your body type and build. I am simply
saying let’s try to be as healthy as we can be in every area of our lives so
that we can maximize our roles as moms and female examples. If your mind, heart, soul and body feel on
point, it really does flow over into how we treat our kids and the things we do
and say to them. Whatever areas you
need to make healthier to benefit you and your family, take it one day at a
time and seek the help you need to be an over comer.
Confession of Mom,
Angela
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