Hello! It has been 9 months since I have blogged. I needed to take a moment and refocus my mind, life perspective and emotional health. I have to tell you, or maybe I don't, since we are all moms, that sometimes you just have to reevaluate your life. The reason I took a much needed break was sometimes as women, especially as mothers, we pour out to so many people around us, till we are left empty, drained and in my case, physically and medically exhausted. I know that stress has physically impacted my life. Much of the stress is external, daily factors like bills, parenting, etc. However, I have learned that negatively dealing with stress only creates more stress
Let me give you a quick update on things. Well, Aunna still lovessssssss school, Lillian Grace is attempting to potty train (Lord help me), and Larry is sweet, understanding and patient as usual. I have been dealing with some health issues, but as the old folks use to say, "I can't complain!"
My biggest struggle is learning how to deal with the heavy demands I feel from being a mother. I have had professional jobs supervising large teams of people, but never have I endured the level of stress, anxiety and sheer pressure I feel on a daily basis being mom. As the children get older, the demands grow also. During this "mommy moment" hiatus, I realized that my response and mind set about being a mother dictates my stress level. Am I trying to do it all and be a perfectionist? Am I allowing the yelling and bickering of small children drive me crazy while I try to drive the car? How do I deal with two children constantly calling out "Mommy, MOMMY, MOMMY" a million times a day till I snap and answer back, W H A T!!!!!
I gotta tell you the truth, I felt like I was having a mommy break down. Not only was my body becoming physically impacted, but my spirit was really down. The truth is everyone is dealing with an issue or issues that cause stress. The only difference is some handle it in a healthy way, while others, like myself, do not. So, I took time to focus on me, something I very rarely do, and I am glad I did. What I learned during this brief sabbatical is that I have to plan for tomorrow, BUT live in the now! Anxiety and worrying about tomorrow only creates a cycle of stress, sickness and extreme fatigue.
Do you need to take a mommy moment and focus more on you and less on other things that really do not need your immediate attention? If so, try it, you may find yourself in the process.
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