Learning to Enjoy Every Moment With My Children

I am doing something at this very moment that 6 years ago felt like an impossibility.  I am sitting outside of Starbucks, sipping a grande soy green tea frappe with whip creme and gazing up at the gorgeous early evening sky not having a panic attack simply because I am away from my children.  A cool, refreshing summer breeze is gently kissing my face as the July humidity subsides for the night.  Six years ago I became a mom for the first time and felt fear, anxiety, dread and exhaustion like I had never experienced before.  The thought of or even the time and energy to leave the children for more than 20 minutes to simply sit and stare at the sky was mentally and emotionally impossible for me.

Today, almost six and a half years later, I am finally calm about being a mom.  Let me rephrase that, I am calmer.  I have NOT arrived.  Each day is a struggle to relax, have fun, enjoy the season I am in and not stress me or the kids and hubby out with my own mommy fears and worries.  As a Christian, I can honestly say that it is God who has and still is walking me along this path called mommy hood.  Also, having other moms, especially those older than me who have walked this walk, has really been a blessing.  Those women like my mom, aunts and cousins have had time now that their children are grown, to sit back and evaluate their successes as well as their failures as moms. 

My biggest take away from all the advice many of these women bestowed upon me is to enjoy every day with my children because before I know it, they will be young adults getting ready to spread their wings and fly away.  I have to constantly remind myself of that when Lillian Grace and Aunna seem to call my name a million times a day!  

Until Next Time,
Angela